problematic guest considers to write in the book of complains, than she lets it go

Of course I was not moved to another room. I spoke 3 times with the front desk, we agreed 2 times in that he's going to send the boy - and... of course, nothing happened within 40 minutes, expect that I have packed everything (!!! GRRRRR) and that I was late from my dinner (!!! GRRRRRR)...

So, all that good thing I have worked out in the GYM (because I went today, and run for 40 minutes, this means 5 km all together) almost disappeared because of this. I am getting sick of work. Really, it is such a bad feeling that I am not done with my presentation for tomorrow and after tomorrow... this is not my style. But as I didn't have time AT ALL within the last 2 weeks to prepare these, now they are sitting on my neck and don't let me sleep. :(This is why I am depressed even in Mexico: I cannot rest, cannot let go things as things are not ready yet, and the pressure is still here. Well, 1 down, 2 to go: hope to be ready by today.

But yesterday, yesterday we (as a group, with the Macedonians) visited the pyramids (Teotihuacan, at the North of Mexico City out of the city), then we went to visit the Cathedral of la Virgen de Guadalupe. I departed from the group and visited a mess :) :) I was very happy about it. And after this, came home (to this very distinct hotel of good service) by metro and by collectivo :) and I found my way back to the hotel without any difficulties, thanks to God. (Our very kind tour guide and minibus driver described me where to go in advance).

So this is story of yesterday.. it was a very good day. Today is a good day also, it gives the possibility for me to acknowledge myself as a problematic guest, but I feel I have the right to be problematic, when I cannot rest in my room properly (even though I am a guest of our Mexican partner). Ahh.. I know.. I am too sensitive. Just complaining from Mexico, when many other person would be happy to do what I am doing. So let me clarify this: I am happy with what I am doing, I enjoy it, and it makes me happy. Only that I define service in a different way. I am opened to accept. Or, what could I do if I am not opened to accept how things are? Could explode in anger... does not worth it. But for the first time in my life (again, a first time thing, I knew in advance that this sentence "we are here to serve You" is just too good to be true, and it is, as it turned out) I truly considered to write in the book of complaints of the hotel. In addition to this, on Sunday - as Mexico is a catholic country - no Money Exchange places are opened in the WHOLE MEXICO CITY except hotels and the airport. BUT our very distinct hotel could not change money for us, as they run out of pesos... ahh.. so we went into a different Camino Real with the whole group, because of me (I didn't have dollars, only Euros), but there they didn't change my money as I wasn't one of their guest. So silly. So not tourist-friendly.

All right, all right, complaints stopped. I wonder how would it be just to be a real tourist and travel with that person I would like to travel the most.. I cannot imagine now. I hope it will happen one day. Would be great just wondering around without any precious goal, without any "to do" things.

A good thing: people are great. Participants from Macedonia, and Mexicans as well. So delighted. So full of sun. It's a good feeling to get closer to the city and to its inhabitants. Lightens me up.

Now let's see what I have as possible presentation for tomorrow, and for Thursday, and go to sleep quickly. Finally, that badgering noise have stopped, thanks for God. I am really sorry to be this problematic... I wish I would have a longer temper with much more patience. But I loose my temper much easier when I am pressed and tired. As Bela Hamvas, my beloved Hungarian writer (philosopher) wrote: 'If you stay home, and never travel, you got to know the world, but if you start to travel, you'll get to know yourself." So here I am, exploring unknown parts of my personality again - and I feel I am doing much better, I have a much better temper than I had years ago, I can already guide and direct my temper much better and much longer than before, even if there is one point when it just breaks away. But again, I can recover much easier and I am almost at the point to be able to decide not to be angry because it vast too much energy for nothing. The world cannot be changed by anger (especially not by MY anger). I should try different ways (acceptance and love). Watta journey!!

I am grateful for being here. Only that now some things are a little hard. Only a little... (today was a day when Murphy’s law was true: what could go wrong went wrong in terms of my Hotel. But now, when I am finishing this post, it's already next day's morning, as last night also the Internet connection broke down – really, I am now just sitting here and laughing on this – I feel much better. It seems that I was extremely tired this is why it was soooo hard to let things go if they happened on a different way than I HAVE PLANNED. Let’s pick up today’s line!!

Hohohooo, feelin’ enthusiastic!! A good day for everyone! :)